dreams

read greyswriters.com

2012-02-06T23:49:00.000-08:00

It’s been a month since I have last updated this blog. (I paused at this sentence for five minutes, not knowing what to write). Oh wells, perhaps I could introduce this wonderful blog that I have been reading: www.greyswriters.com. The writing is really good and there is a lot to learn from. Apart from the fact that it is written by the writers of Grey’s Anatomy and that they have stopped submitting entries since season seven, it is still a fabulously wonderful site. On that note, I shall end my post. It’s not because I have got nothing to say, but because I have got too much to say and do not know where to begin.

goodbye 2011, hello 2012

2012-01-02T01:06:00.000-08:00

A new year ahead! I gladly welcome 2012. It’s not that 2011 was a bad year, I mean, nothing can be worse than 2009 or 2010. I would say that 2011 was a year of self-discovery, because I had the luxury of several months to figure things out. To learn more about myself, to think about my future and plan towards it, to put myself out there and risk failing. Growth would be my word to sum up 2011.

oh my painful life

2011-12-12T15:15:00.000-08:00

I know I’m a terrible blogger. I’m inconsistent with the entries and I pretty much leave people with no joy when they read it. But, for what it’s worth, here I am now, being answerable to what I have written. Life has been painful. With everything that has been going on, it is so unfortunate that I can hardly share this with anyone. I keep things to myself, mainly because I don’t see a point in inviting someone to my misery.

Sometimes, I wonder if what I see translates to the truth of matter. I can easily name ten people in my life who are not what they appear to be. With this, I feel like everyone has got their ugly truth. And awfully enough, I admire their ability to put their ugly truth aside and constantly put up a strong front. I don’t know how they manage to do so. It seems like their threshold is literally limitless and that is frightening.

wrong 90210 epi on star world ):

2011-12-01T21:49:00.000-08:00

Star World has got the wrong episode for 90210. It should be episode 7 instead of 4x06. How upsetting. Yeah, another reason for me to be whiny ~

they make me happy

2011-10-21T23:50:00.000-07:00

It’s the people around you that make you happy. It’s the things you do that make you happy. I appreciate what I have and I am grateful for all that I’ve been given. I’m better now, less whiny about my life (although there are still anger issues at home to deal with).

greys quote: crappy people

2011-10-03T22:25:00.000-07:00

Meredith: What cheerful people say when something crappy happens and they make it sound like it wasn't crappy?

Cristina: A blessing in disguise?

Meredith: Yeah. Maybe that's what this is. This is that.

There are plenty of reasons to why I love Grey's Anatomy so much, so so much. The lines are well-scripted and I can totally relate to the characters. I'm dark and twisty too.
I feel so good watching Greys.

always an uphill battle

2011-09-24T02:17:00.000-07:00

Life is complicated. Life’s never easy. I’m constantly challenged. It’s always an uphill battle. I can feel myself sinking. I’m trying my best right here so don’t blame me, don’t push me so hard. There is only this much that I can contain.

i'm staring at my workload, don't know where to start

2011-09-04T18:16:00.000-07:00

I burnt myself out, totally. I am suffering from the consequences now. I’m staring at my workload and I don’t know where to start. I’m screwed, so screwed.

i fail driving test today

2011-08-26T23:01:00.000-07:00

People hope/pray/wish that tomorrow will be better, but for me, it will just be another day, another 24 hours for me to get through, trying to dodge away from more incisions.
I don't ask for a lot.

parents left for alaska; i cook western

2011-08-20T19:21:00.000-07:00

My parents are out of town again. This time, it’s Alaska. When they are away, I get to do grocery shopping. And I tend to splurge on expensive cheese, hotdogs, cereal etc. I’m having more of a Western diet than a Chinese one. Well, there are only two dishes which I can handle so far. Scrambled eggs and crepe. I consider my maggie mee a failure, it isn’t tasty, don’t ask me why. I’ll never become a chef, it is so obvious, totally.

not excited about smu opportunities

2011-08-07T16:40:00.000-07:00

People get so hyped up about what new activities that they can be looking forward to. But the problem with me is, I have been there and done that already. It’s not like I haven’t been part of an OCIP before, it’s not like I have not cleaned up a dirty one-room flat before, it’s not like I have not done newspaper collection or flag day in my life, and it’s not like I have never travelled overseas and seen the world.

I’m blessed, I’m privileged. I get that. I don’t get excited as easily. This just sucks, because it means I won’t be on the same page as others. I am just different. So different.

nag at dad to get mri scan done

2011-07-26T01:34:00.000-07:00

It’s creepy. I’m referring to the way I nag at my Dad. I sound like an old granny, and I am not an old granny so I shouldn’t sound like one. I just want him to get that MRI scan done. It’s serious, I am talking about his dear health. Maybe I have been having too much of Grey’s Anatomy and neuro-god McDreamy that I fear abnormalities. Say no to tumour, or even a freaking mass of cells. Anyway, early detection, early prevention. This is something where complacency will never kick in. I am going to drag him to the hospital. I’ll make sure he’ll get that damn scan done.

choosing SMU over NUS

2011-07-20T17:26:00.000-07:00

The human life is made up of choices. Yes or no. In or out. Up or down. At the end of the day, we just have to close our eyes, take a step and hope to God we'll get there. Pray really hard that it’s a sound choice, that things will turn out just all right.

not an open book

2011-07-07T14:44:00.000-07:00

I believe things will be easier if that was the case. But I just can’t, I doubt I can ever allow my life to be an open book. It will be healthier for me, but I just can’t. Don’t even bother trying. I am too broken inside to take the risk.

rolling in the deep - by choir

2011-06-27T01:51:00.000-07:00

OMG. This is super! Even Adele agrees :)

dad and mom affair

2011-06-23T01:47:00.000-07:00

How could an affair be so devastating when there was no love in the first place? It’s been more than six months as of today. When I first learnt about it, I blamed it on him. I ignored him, and I couldn’t understand the reason behind it. I was badly overwhelmed. It started with returning home late in the nights, sitting alone at bus stops, watching the buses go by. I was escaping from it, avoiding reality. Wishing that things will turn out just fine was the most foolish thing to do then, but I did. However, I realised she attempted to do some salvation - robbing him off his cell phone during non-office hours, probing into his privacy, behaving hysterically. The worst thing she did was to whine incessantly about being unwanted, warning us that beneath all these, he is not a good role model. She thinks that we are highly ignorant self-absorbed youths who are not aware of the crack. Truth is, we knew it before she did, and we knew who that third party was (she doesn’t). We kept it from her, hoping that the status quo will stay if we remain silent. We acted normally, day in day out. Then, in February, I found out that she was looking up private investigators via the Internet, browsing through pages about SMS retrieval and cheating spouses. Things took a turn for the worst. They started holding hands when we dined out. It was awkwardly strange. I recalled what he told me when I asked about their love story. He was painfully honest, and I was convinced. Mutual love was never the foundation of their relationship. Slowly, I accepted his side of the story. He wasn’t completely at fault. Meanwhile, her paranoia got the best of me. She made things more destructive than it could ever be, rubbing things the wrong way. Her situation evokes my pathos, but it doesn’t suffice as a reason for the upcoming decisions. Just last week, she broke down. It was the first time I heard her cry. For sure it was related to the affair, but we don’t know what it was exactly about. Quoting from Edna St. Vincent Millay, “Life must go on; I forget just why.”

some hk photos with friends

2011-06-18T02:33:00.000-07:00

Photos taken during the HK trip from 09 March 2011 to 13 March 2011.

pass FTT

2011-06-17T05:35:00.000-07:00

Awwww. I felt like I have mistreated my blog a little. I'm more active at Twitterland. Well, at least I could claim that I am for now. Who knows when will be the next time that I tweet or blog or leave a message at fb. Anyway, here's a piece of good news, I pass my Final Theory Test for driving!

And I still haven't catch a wink for tonight's sleep. Will probably be throwing myself on the bed at daybreak :)

posted my first tweet

2011-06-10T02:23:00.000-07:00

Posted my first tweet! There are so many platforms these days.
So follow me on twitter, facebook, and over here - blogger!

quote from CASTLE to live life to the fullest

2011-06-07T01:06:00.000-07:00

RISKING OUR HEARTS IS WHY WE'RE ALIVE. THE LAST THING YOU WANT IS TO LOOK BACK ON YOUR LIFE AND WONDER... IF ONLY.

I got the quote from Royce's character in Castle. It is so true, and it explains why I have such huge dreams and goals. I want to live life to the fullest. The sky is the limit.

got a twitter account!

2011-06-04T04:49:00.000-07:00

I've gotten myself a twitter account!
Follow me on: http://twitter.com/#!/Charmaine_Yeo

Right, I will be tweeting as @Charmaine_Yeo

It was just another impulsive moment when I created the account. I will start tweeting once I get myself a picture to replace that egg.

new idol-carrie underwood; avril lavigne concert; shop topshop&dorothy perkins; quit hospital job

2011-05-29T20:41:00.000-07:00

In the past, I knew what kind of life I wanted to live. I knew what I want to do; I had goals.

Anyway, I am just blogging to keep my blog alive. I have a new IDOL, Carrie Underwood! She’s great! I saw her performance with Lauren Alaina on AI finale, and she’s the true powerhouse.

Just to note some dates:
09 May 2011. I attended Avril Lavigne’s The Black Star Concert in Singapore. It was fabulous, I never had such a great time at a concert before.

20 May 2011. Went on another shopping spree at Topshop and Dorothy Perkins. It was just my part to contribute to the local economy. Nearly 200 dollars flew away, but it was worthwhile. It could have been more if I didn’t do the shopping with my new friend and colleague, Raudah.

24 May 2011. It was my last day at CRAP Hospital. I was struggling there. So why put myself in so much misery when it is not necessary at all. Money isn’t all that matters.

29 May 2011. Mom and Dad left for London. It’s good that they’re gone, gives me more time to work on my endless thinking of what exactly do I want to do with my life.

i am lost

2011-05-17T23:37:00.000-07:00

Title: LOST

I feel terribly LOST.
LOST in life.
Every morning I get up and put on a fake smile.
It has been this way for weeks already.

And the world continues to spin.

new gleneagles job, royal wedding

2011-05-01T23:45:00.000-07:00

Title: Just another update

27 April 2011 was the first day of my new job. I think my job titles have been pretty cool so far. The previous shitty one was ‘Customer Care Consultant’, and my current one is called “Patient Account Representative”. Just so you know, I am working in the Business Office of XXX Hospital. Haha, I shall keep it unknown so that I can bitch about it if I have to.
The pay is definitely lower than the previous job because it is way less challenging. By that, what I mean is that there is no need to face unreasonable people and get scolded by them when I am not the one at fault.

29 April 2011 was a great day for me. I was so happy for the royal wedding between Prince William and Catherine/Kate Middleton! I went around telling people, reminding them of this big day. I think it is a truly special occasion which gives many people a breather to have something joyous to celebrate about after the grieve over Japan’s situation. I believe that their marriage will be an everlasting one because their faith for the relationship is so strong that no prenuptial agreement was signed (: Yet, till now, I have yet to see the bridal gown. I have recorded the live coverage of the wedding but it is 5.5 hours long. Maybe I’ll start on it tomorrow morning or something.

Long day tomorrow! Have to catch the live coverage of the latest episode of The Amazing Race at 8am, and then head to driving school to top-up some money into my account, and two separate gatherings to attend!

new laptop

2011-04-26T22:17:00.000-07:00

Title: Getting used to

I am learning how to adapt to my new laptop. I feel so 'antique'. Anyways, my new laptop is super sleek :)

Sorry for all the one-liner/ short posts. Maybe I should start tweeting soon!

what's meant to be will be

2011-04-19T18:13:00.000-07:00

Title: Believe

What's meant to be will be.

pia toscano got a record album!

2011-04-11T01:47:00.000-07:00

Title: Pia got signed!

Pia Toscano will record her debut album under Jimmy Iovine’s Interscope Records!!! She got the deal within 24 hours after elimination!
Gawd, I feel so happy for her!

smu interview, beef wellington

2011-04-08T23:00:00.000-07:00

Title: SMU interview

I was less nervous today for the SMU Accountancy interview; perhaps because of the experience I gained from the NTU interview. I met Kai Xun while waiting for the interview, and also two other TJ guys. I couldn’t recognize Kai Xun (I took quite some time to recall that he was my lower secondary classmate in TK).
You know, I have a hunch that the mailman who delivers letters to my house hates me. Waiting kills – with no letter of acceptance so far.

So after the interview, I went to Ritz Carlton for high tea with my family. And guess what! I had Beef Wellington as one of the eight courses. OMG! I feel so fortunate! Fyi, Beef Wellington is one of the most challenging dishes to prepare. It is such a high-end course which took Chef Gordon Ramsay five years to perfect it, thus making me feel that the chefs at Ritz Carlton are superb. Kudos to them!

save pia toscano

2011-04-08T21:47:00.000-07:00

Title: SAVE PIA TOSCANO!

Originally, I wanted to blog about the SMU interview I had today. But I am feeling so emotional, till now. It has been about two hours and I still can’t get over the fact that Pia Toscano was voted out from American Idol. What the hell was that! Though I admit that her “River Deep – Mountain High” was not as good as Glee’s, her performance last night was my personal favourite! You know, she is the potential winner of this season, and with her gone, like that, it makes me feel that it’s not worthwhile watching Idol anymore. I really want something to happen, like maybe create another SAFE, just for her. Saving Casey was such a wrong move! The elimination episode made me cry, I feel so sad for Pia.

Please help save PIA TOSCANO!
http://www.savepia.com

first driving lesson

2011-04-04T23:59:00.000-07:00

Title: THE "SHALLOW" ME

Life has been great! Well, maybe not. They call me “shallow”, which I think I really am one, at times.
Since the end of the oh-so-important ‘A’ levels, I went on a 24 days long trip all over London, Scotland, Italy, Switzerland & Paris! So basically, that’s how my 2010 December was spent.

After which, since January the eighth, I became an employee of a company which typically provides very POOR services, as well as customer service. The simple reason for not mentioning the company’s name in my blog is to protect my rights, legally. (You know, just in case they do badly in the next financial year and decided to go via legal routes and sue people who have been tarnishing their name.) Marking two full months, my last day of working there was the seventh of March. I was and still am very grateful to have the opportunity to work there – meeting new people, earning more friends, learning the art of quality conversation, and of course, getting to see the dark side of all customers, which reminds me of my rights as a customer.

And then, loaded with cash (not a lot actually), I went on this marvellous Hong Kong trip with my best friends! (Having so many besties make this world more wonderful than it already is.)
Still, when I came back, I went on this crazy shopping spree. I donated one-hundred and fifty dollars to ZARA, and another eighty dollars to Pull & Bear. I think I went wild that day, probably because I was shopping alone. In fact, I love to shop alone. It makes things easier, somehow.

Moving on, I choose to remain jobless till the very last minute of April 11 2011. During this period of time, I flooded my life with Survivor: Redemption Island, The Amazing Race: Unfinished Business, The Amazing Race season 7 (where there were Rob & Amber from Survivor), Castle season 2, Glee season 2, Masterchef US, Junior Masterchef Australia, America’s Next Top Model cycle 15, American Idol season 10, Links to Temptation, Ghost Writer. What a list! Impressive, isn’t it? But it is coming to an end soon…

Now some of you may ask, why April 11? ‘Cause it’s the day that I will be having my BTT! And this week, I have to tackle three BTT e-trial tests and also the SMU interview. The most exciting piece of news … … is that … … I drove a car today!!! OMG! It was so much fun, and my instructor was so friendly! He calls me monkey, by the way. Anyway, today was my first driving practical lesson and things work out pretty smoothly, considering that I didn’t crash into anyone/ anything.
Oh, and I am crazy in love with travelling! Draft out a plan, and I’ll be on board! Hee-haw!

ntu interview

2011-03-30T15:50:00.000-07:00

Title: NTU interview

What a nerve-wrecking day today was! I had my NTU Accountancy interview this morning. Pre-interview waiting was a killer! I was shaking, and I really mean SHAKING! It meant so much to me, and my Dad, and also to people around me. I hope I did well enough to secure a place there. I truly wanted it; and competition IS tough.

By the way, again, HK pictures will be delayed. I am waiting for the entire album/ collection to be saved into a CD. Pictures are currently scattered all over fb.

glee lucky

2011-03-16T01:36:00.000-07:00

Title: Lucky!

I will be uploading some pictures of the AMAZING HK trip here! But before that, here's my favourite song!
I am soooooo addicted to this (: Sam & Quinn make such a cute couple!

Do you hear me,
I’m talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky, oh my, baby I’m trying
Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

Lucky I’m in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

They don’t know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I’ll wait for you I promise you, I will

Lucky I’m in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we’re in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I’m sailing through the sea
To an island where we’ll meet
You’ll hear the music fill the air
I’ll put a flower in your hair

Though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you’re all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

Lucky I’m in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we’re in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
Ooooh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

I love the lyrics too! This song is PERFECT! Of course, credits go to original singers Jason Mraz & Colbie Caillat. Cheers!

a level results, quit starhub, register driving

2011-03-05T01:48:00.000-08:00

Title: Quick Updates!

1. Not that I don't want to do up that 2010 vacation post, but it took me 3 freaking hours just to do the post for DAY 01. So I guess that post will not be published anytime soon after all. Really sorry for the delay!

2. Today's the release of the 'A' Level results! I really think the effort I put in was insufficient for me to get such wonderful grades. I believe it's karma and also god who made this happen. I am truly thankful for this and I promise to try my best in future to not let anyone down anymore.

3.

Hui Min, Gwen, Shan Shan, Wei Fang, Jia Jun, Jessica, Angeline Madjukie, Ee Chien, Wen Hui, Bei Ying, Jia Qi, Jacqueline, Alan (my tuition teacher), Cassandra, Cybil, Serene, Sally... Did I miss anyone out? Please leave me a tag if I really did so. ou

"There's no elevator to success, you'll have to take the stairs." - Xu ShanShan (:

4. And YES! I finally got myself a fb just to keep in touch with my amazing StarHub colleagues. Everyone's leaving, one by one, and so am I! My last day will be the Seventh of March! I am definitely going to miss those people. So here comes the list of names (again, it is in no particular order)!
Dorothy, Samantha, Stacey, Jeremy, Kang Chong, Cheryl Teo, Sandy, Chia Li, Charmaine Chung, Lim Shan Shan, Kah Hsing, Kar Chian, Ling Yu, Criss, Shi Lei, Theresa, Shayne, Thrina, Alissa, Joseph Jin... Damn, I really feel that I left some names out. Gosh, please tell me if your name is not there.

5. I AM GOING TO HONG KONG FROM 09 March 2011 to 13 March 2011! And I am paying for everything using my hard-earn money. Air tickets, hotel lodging, expenses, everything! AND, I am going with Wei Fang, Jia Jun, Denise, Shan Shan, and Jessica!!! *screams*

6. I have registered for Driving classes! Auto car though (: Basic Theory Test in April!

7. This is it so far! And have a great week ahead! XOXO

coming up next...! my vacation post

2011-01-30T22:32:00.000-08:00

Title: Sneak peek

Coming up next... ... ...

a super long post about my 2010 vacation in LONDON, SCOTLAND, ITALY, SWITZERLAND & PARIS! (:

P.S. This picture was taken by me! (: Please do not laugh at my lousy photography skills.

my cat pathos post

2011-01-19T05:26:00.000-08:00

Title: Cats

For me to start a post with this title, I think I have left my friends in disbelief already. Cats – what I deem as the worst ‘invention’ on Earth. Still, I shall continue typing about my encounters with two cats today. During lunch break, I saw a grey cat at the kopitiam and I got so freaked out that I immediately grab Samantha’s hand and scurried away. My phobia for cats is absolutely indescribable. Anyway, I would prefer to share more about my second cat encounter. So, I was walking past the Nasi Lemak shop, on my way home, and I saw this white cat busily having her meal under the van. That cat is a familiar member along the street, and I think the Nasi Lemak crew actually takes care of it. That scene of the tiny cat trying its best to eat as much as possible gave me the impression that there is this huge fear in the cat, telling the cat that the food may be the last meal they would provide. It set me thinking. That cat was never given a choice since it was born. The cat didn’t choose to be a stray cat. Deep inside the cat’s heart, there would surely be a time where the cat wished to be well looked after by some kind souls and be constantly pampered. Ironically, the cat deeply evokes my pathos. However so, I doubt this could reduce my ultimate fear for cats.

going to hk with friends; update abt work

2011-01-18T00:22:00.000-08:00

Title: Aiming to be financially independent

Cheers! I am going to Hong Kong with my lovely bunch of friends! This is so exciting – all the checking of flights and hotel information, and thinking of what to do when we are there! I am absolutely certain that we will be very wild then, jumping crazily all over the place. Gaaa, I can’t hide my excitement! Alright, so meanwhile, I will have to be working faithfully and do not succumb to the temptation of tendering a resignation letter. This job is unbearable for many and as a result, I have friends who have decided to quit already. In my case, I think I am lucky enough to have yet to attend to overly demanding or outright rude customers. May this mini lucky streak continue all the way! Colleagues are really helpful and friendly too, particularly those who went through training with me. I really hope that I could at least stay for a few months and earn enough money to fully finance myself for the amazing HK trip that I am totally looking forward to.

outing pics

2011-01-10T02:13:00.000-08:00

Title: Pictures!

The shots below are all taken on December 31 2010 & January 2 2011 (:

My clique of six who stuck with me through boring classes in my JC life. They are such good girls, and I am always the one leading them astray. Naughty me!

My best best best best best best best best best best friend! We caught the fireworks together! It was so spectacular and we were so crazy. And I look so mini in the picture.

I was so happy that she came back, but left again. Still, we had an amazing time together, going to our usual hangout. She'll be back in July and I'm certain that we'll have loads of fun then!

start work today!

2011-01-08T23:47:00.000-08:00

Title: Employed!

Well, I started work today! Haha, to be exact, it's training. I will only be able to embark on work officially on Wednesday. Though the pay rate during training is two dollars less, the pay I got for working today is like redeeming the Pull & Bear skirt I bought yesterday at VivoCity. Just imagine. In order to buy all the wonderful things that catch my eyes in the brightly lit shopping malls, I'll need to make more money and soon, soon enough, those pretty items will end up in my room! Of course, I have to save up for my vacation expenses with my dear friends as well (:

failed cook

2011-01-07T01:20:00.000-08:00

Title: Cooking

I think I am capable of burning my house down! I was simply frying an egg in the kitchen and the whole house got flooded with this 'chao tah' smell. In English, it means burnt. Well, I got to admit that I am not a good indoor cook. I think I perform much better at barbecueing or outdoor cooking (like what I used to do in Guides). Haha, what a failed cook!

2011!

2011-01-03T00:27:00.000-08:00

Title: 2011 (:

I enjoy every moment of 2011 to bits and pieces! <3 There is always something different to look forward to every day; and it's a pleasure to live with no regrets! Haha, au revoir to the miserable 2010 (worst year of my life)! Nothing's comparable to leading a life like mine now, AMAZING is the word (:

i heart fireworks

2010-12-28T23:59:00.000-08:00

Title: Fireworks!

I ♥ FIREWORKS! Can somebody catch the 2011 fireworks with me? And mind you, I don't want to see them shooting across the sky via the television screen. I want to catch it LIVE! I am so energetic now 'cause I had 18 hours of sleep today! (: Don't laugh. My bed is just so comfy (: And of course, I love Katy Perry's Firework song. I hear it almost everyday when I was abroad; on the local radio, MTV, and Christmas market!

Do you ever feel like a plastic bag
Drifting throught the wind
Wanting to start again

Do you ever feel, feel so paper thin
Like a house of cards
One blow from caving in

Do you ever feel already buried deep
Six feet under scream
But no one seems to hear a thing

Do you know that there's still a chance for you
'Cause there's a spark in you

You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July

'Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby you're a firework
Come on let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gonna leave 'em fallin' down-own-own

You don't have to feel like a waste of space
You're original, cannot be replaced
If you only knew what the future holds
After a hurricane comes a rainbow

Maybe you're reason why all the doors are closed
So you could open one that leads you to the perfect road

Like a lightning bolt, your heart will blow
And when it's time, you'll know

You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July

'Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby you're a firework
Come on let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gonna leave 'em fallin' down-own-own

Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
It's always been inside of you, you, you
And now it's time to let it through

'Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby you're a firework
Come on let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gonna leave 'em goin "Oh, oh, oh!"

Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon

return to singapore!

2010-12-27T08:09:00.000-08:00

Title: Back to the little red dot!

I AM BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh dear, during the car ride home, everything seemed so unfamiliar. I think I need therapy. Seeing those SBS buses, Comfort taxis, and buildings along the road was like an attempt to recall all the details of my life in Singapore. Being away for 24 days could somehow make me lose my memory of how my homeland is like. This is weird.

in switzerland

2010-12-22T04:00:00.000-08:00

Title: Still stuck overseas

I am blogging from Switzerland right now. Another day in Switzerland and I will be heading to Paris after that. I am homesick. I left the sunny island of Singapore on the fourth of December. I miss my friends, the yummy food, entertainment, mobile etc. The list never ends. This is the very first time that I finally managed to gain access to the Internet after so many days. It feels like I have been cut off from the rest of the world. I don't even know what's going on out there; totally clueless. Sounds pretty miserable, doesn't it? And to worsen it, I had fever when I was in Rome and I am still having a little dry cough.
Well, enough of ranting or I will sound like a spoilt brat. Looking at the brighter side, it's pretty cool to have such an experience. I will update about this vacation with plenty of pictures after I return to Singapore (: Just a couple more days to go!

By the way, I have absolutely no idea if those messages left at the tagboard was an act of spamming or what. So, please kindly opt out of remaining anonymous so that I know who you are. And I miss you, Sally (:

lost my voice

2010-12-04T01:50:00.000-08:00

Title: Mute.

Just because I lost my voice, I got accused by the stressful individuals at home who are frantically packing for our family trip. I lost the right to defend for myself. Injustice.

amazing race; fever before exam; tour the world

2010-11-24T23:53:00.000-08:00

Title: Let's tour the world!

Try having stomach cramps two days before a national exam. Oh, and in addition to it, fever and throat inflammation one day before that examination day. I could hardly study. So, there goes my Biology paper 3 and Chemistry paper 1. Wiped out! I’m now left with the MCQ paper for Biology on the second of December. It’s the final shot I’ve got. What a situation I have gotten myself into.

Well, I guess I have not mentioned this before. I’m a fan of The Amazing Race, specifically season 17 (the one that CBS and our local Channel 5 are broadcasting now). This is the first time that I have watched all the available episodes of a season of The Amazing Race. I love reality shows, but still, Survivor is my all-time favourite! The Amazing Race is more of luck and less of strategic plays as compared to Survivor. In this latest season of The Amazing Race, I am rooting for Nat & Kat (the doctors team)! It’s an eye-opener to get a chance to see the different parts of the world. I would love to tour the world, alone, or preferably with someone I love. There are so many things to see, and so many cultures to learn and experience.

after math paper

2010-11-12T23:23:00.000-08:00

Title: In the midst of a battle

I am exhausted, and yet I refuse to sleep or study now. After today’s Math paper, I’ve been enjoying my day as if ‘A’ levels is already over. Literally, I am only left with 4 more days of examination, spread over 3 weeks. Haha. But this ain’t the time to be complacent. Yeah, go on and on and on with the nagging about the importance of consistency. I have been online for hours looking for the solutions to today’s paper to estimate my grade. Math has been my strongest subject in this what they call rigorous ‘A’ level curriculum. But still, I had this sense of insecurity throughout today’s attempt; felt so uneasy during that 3 hours.

i need a happy ending

2010-11-04T00:26:00.000-07:00

Title: Give me a happy ending ☺

And yet I am still online now. It took me two freaking hours to print the GP 2009 essay outlines two days ago. And no, there is absolutely nothing wrong with my printer. Here I am, printing the remaining GP answer keys and all. Here’s my study plan. I am going to clear as much Biology by tomorrow. Friday to Monday are reserved for Chemistry. I can’t mess with it ‘cause it is simply where I find more hope in. I am really sorry but I have got no time for Math (well, other than having math tuition of course). I hope this will turn out to be, ahem, decent? (I can’t find a word to describe this.) I have screwed my life sufficiently over these two years by making wrong choices. This is my last shot; so that I can wrap things up and move on to another phase. I want a happy ending. Oh, I think I meant, I need a happy ending.

it's november

2010-11-01T23:00:00.000-07:00

Title: November!

Well, one more hour to go and it will be the end of 01 November 2010. It's NOVEMBER already, freak out! And I am still trying to complete the Biology syllabus -.- I hope god will bestow loads of luck on me (: For I really don't know what lies ahead of me...

i will not carry a torch for him anymore

2010-10-22T23:58:00.000-07:00

Title: It is time to move on

I only came to a realization today after so many years. I spent too long living in denial and I was unwilling to try hard enough to convince myself that it was over. But at least, now, I got myself out of the persisting false ideology that I plunged myself in for years. It took me so much courage to find out the truth. I was never willing to face it; I thought my world would crumble into pieces.
I know it is time to move on already. I shall try to start afresh. Nonetheless, it was absolutely impossible to forget — an impactful journey that I went through in the course of my life.

stress can't finish didnt study today

2010-10-16T23:21:00.000-07:00

Title: Stress

Oh my god. I am so stress now. I am super stress 'cause I didn't study today. I feel so guilty, guilt-ridden ): Eat, sleep, tv. I can't finish the syllaubus for all subjects. I am deaddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd.

lonely bday; sweet friends

2010-10-11T22:40:00.000-07:00

Title: Quick updates

I didn’t go attend school today, and won’t be going to school again tomorrow. I mean, it’s simple mathematics; as long as my attendance is 90% and above, I am satisfied. After counting, I think I am still entitled to around 3 days of school-skipping before it hits ninety. I’ve got to practice some self-disciplined these days. For watching the totally hilarious and entertaining What Happens In Vegas last night, I am not going to lay my finger on the TV remote control until Thursday (when there’s Survivor Nicaragua).

And I am so happy to be surrounded by a whole bunch of true friends. They are really sweet (: For instance, they text you in the middle of the night, saying “Hey ya. I hope you are studying now.” Haha. They know me so well and they are fully aware of the high possibility that I will be ‘drifting away’, either stoning or anything except studying.

On the contrary, my sister has been tempting me with all forms of guilty pleasure. She found this online link to full episodes of Glee season two and attempted to steer me away from the full focus that I am placing on my academics. And I have been busy helping her with her promotional exams last week that I had to forgo my study plans. So much for having a wonderful sister like mine (: Still, she’s been really nice to me and has already shopped for my birthday present. I heard it’s huge, though I have not seen it. Birthday this year will be terribly lonely though. My parents are leaving for South Africa exactly when the clock strikes twelve, not even spending a single second with me on that very day.

im online 'cause u are online; be compassionate

2010-10-07T22:18:00.000-07:00

Title: I need you to heal me.

The only reason I am online now is because you are online too.

I have so much to say, but no one to turn too. There are people around who are totally ignorant about how it feels and even hurt others when they express themselves. So kind souls out there, please learn to be a compassionate person.

"Do not judge or criticize others. You don't know what people are going through, the torment they feel in the deepest recesses of their heart. People know only too well the mistakes they have made, they don't need someone to point out their failures, they need somebody to bring them hope, healing, encouragement. Hurting people need a friend, not a judge."
Adapted from some random article online.

study bio everyday

2010-10-04T14:48:00.000-07:00

Title: A daily dosage of Biology

Study study study. Here’s the plan. My afternoons are reserved for Biology. In the night, I will be doing homework (which is kind of like revision at the same time). So please don’t steal my afternoons away or make me stay back. There is so much to study for Biology and it is impossible to finish the syllabus if I leave it to the last. Biology everyday (: Haha. Study study study.

And if I’m addicted to loving you
And you’re addicted to my love too
We can be them
Two birds of a feather
That flock together

don't give up

2010-10-01T15:18:00.000-07:00

Title: Press on

I can’t hide this. I am really upset. I even feel like giving up. All the glares and mockery, intentionally or unintentionally, they are tearing me apart. Why has life got to do with education, grades, and the impossible-to-hide factor of EXPECTATIONS. Is getting that string of As so important? Screw this.
Alright, take a breather, and chill. I can’t give up at this stage and there is simply no reason for me to. I’ve been holding on for nearly two years already, just a couple of weeks more to go. I can do this. Study study study.

When you come to the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on.
by Franklin D. Roosevelt

drop dead

2010-09-28T22:39:00.000-07:00

Title: Drop dead.

I'm so tired now. I went to the public library to study and did some Biology and Economics. I hope that there's no civics period tomorrow. If so, I can hit my favourite library in town and start camping there again like what I use to do two years back. Yeah, it is post-prelims now and some of the scripts were returned; lousy grades again. Study study study.

50 days left; house change chinese; like a prayer

2010-09-20T15:16:00.000-07:00

Title: SED

Awesome; there is only 50 days left which effectively leaves me with 10 pathetic days for each subject. I ought to be diagnosed with severe escapism disease (SED). Don’t bother to google it for I am the first ‘researcher’ to study it. From dramas to reality TV and back to dramas, and now, tons and tons of songs. I think I am disastrous ‘cause I made Dad quarrel with Mom and Dad is showering me with loads of love these days. According to Mom, the three most important stages in life are ‘O’ level, ‘A’ level, and Uni. But, Dad is trying to comfort me by saying that it doesn’t matter if I can’t make it into any of the local U. He is willing to buy a house in Australia and accompany me through my years there. Still, it is obvious that he prefers the local universities, I know it.
Anyways, I got my post-prelim timetable today and I love how it is planned. I am sure that there are bound to be remedials scheduled here and there but I think I will be perfectly fine with it. (The use of the word ‘perfectly’ reminds me of Linear Regression; I had Math paper today – near perfect linear correlation. How random.)

Life is a mystery, everyone must stand alone
I hear you call my name
And it feels like home

When you call my name it's like a little prayer
I'm down on my knees, I wanna take you there
In the midnight hour I can feel your power
Just like a prayer you know I'll take you there

I hear your voice, it's like an angel sighing
I have no choice, I hear your voice
Feels like flying
I close my eyes, Oh God I think I'm falling
Out of the sky, I close my eyes
Let the choir sing

When you call my name it's like a little prayer
I'm down on my knees, I wanna take you there
In the midnight hour I can feel your power
Just like a prayer you know I'll take you there

Just like a prayer, I'll take you there
It's like a dream to me.

Just like a prayer, your voice can take me there
Just like a muse to me, you are a mystery
Just like a dream, you are not what you seem
Just like a prayer, no choice your voice can take me there

my life would suck without you

2010-09-08T13:04:00.000-07:00

Title: My life would suck without you.

Kelly Clarkson - My Life Would Suck Without You

Guess this means you're sorry
You're standing at my door
Guess this means you take back
All you said before
Like how much you wanted
Anyone but me
Said you'd never come back
But here you are again

'Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you

Baby I was stupid for telling you goodbye
Maybe I was wrong for tryin' to pick a fight
I know that I've got issues
But you're pretty messed up too
Either way, I found out I'm nothing without you

'Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you

Being with you
Is so dysfunctional
I really shouldn't miss you
But I can't let you go

'Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you

'Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you

competitive spirit

2010-09-03T16:52:00.000-07:00

Title: The Competitive Spirit

This is mind-blowing! Awesome. Thank you God for leading me to the path that I would never be able to find without your assistance. I hope it came just in time, for there’s only 66 more days before my fate is sealed. Finally, I know what I’m lacking in — the competitive spirit. I have never been aiming high enough within these two years of college life. In fact, all I ever hoped for was to sail through acceptably. Last year, my goal was set on getting the two H2 passes in order to get promoted. True enough, I only achieved two H2 passes, meeting the borderline criteria, nothing else. And the same thing applies for this year’s mid-year examinations; I got grades which are merely sufficient to get me out of trouble.
Now, learning that this competitive spirit is what I am lacking in, I shall make a comeback! Maybe it won’t be reflected in the prelims but I want it to be seen on the day I receive my ‘A’ level results. I have never given up, it’s just that I have not been working hard enough to achieve what I am truly capable of. I shall recover my keen sense of competition which I used to possess, and do myself proud.
I can be just as competitive as Stephenie LaGrossa!

need to stay focus

2010-08-31T20:52:00.000-07:00

Title: Teach me how to stay focus

'A' levels is drawing closer and I'm still not dedicating all the time I have to studying. What's wrong with me? I don't want to have a take two, and yet I am still not working hard enough for it. Clearly, I am aware of that cliche saying of "you reap what you sow". And I do believe in it. Gosh, what's holding me back? Like how my besties put it, time is running out. Teach me how to stay focus, how to dedicate full concentration to my studies.

FOCUS

my confession that i still love him

2010-08-10T11:56:00.000-07:00

Title: You flooded ~~my mind~~ my heart

Here I am. Back to blogging. I feel so lousy, so crappy, shitty and all. I wasted this 5-day break doing anything except studying! Damn, it's not like I could afford doing so anymore since my grades ain't getting me anywhere (I know it). And can you imagine that I went shopping at Orchard on Saturday? I didn't get anything in the end though (it always turn out to be like this when I shop with my sis). Oh, and I saw some TK teachers in a coffeehouse at Orchard Central. Hang on, don't digress. What I want to say is that: I did not study at all. It's either I am simply lying on my bed or I am thinking of you. Yes, you. The guy who gave me three little bears, the guy whom I let down, the guy whom I still love till this very day.

psycho myself

2010-07-18T21:58:00.000-07:00

Title: I know.

BESSU. In an order which makes it more pleasant-looking to the eye. Haha. I have never openly mention my grades ever since I entered jc and got those horrendous scores. Not that I find this recent one better, but yeah. Alright, I found my new direction, and an insane way of tuning my thoughts so that I can pull through these few months. Like Taylor, DEAL WITH IT!

what can i do; heartfelt words

2010-07-16T23:59:00.000-07:00

Title: What can I do.

Everyone is stepping up their game play. Everyone is ready to mug their hearts out over the weekend till the end of 'A' levels. Everyone gets so geared up; they are more than willing to kick some asses right now. But look at what I am. Crying hysterically last night for over an hour and stopped only when my eyes got too dry to let any tears flow out. I think I am turning to be like my delicate Blue Roses in The Glass Menagerie and this is so not true/representative of me. I have been so emotional over these two weeks. Life still moves on, but I am left trapped in somewhere that I don't even know.

I have never been put through an emotional turmoil like this. Challenged and defeated, challenged and defeated, challenged and defeated. Nothing seems to turn out right; nothing seems to help. Who is kind enough out there to throw out the lifeline, to be my saviour whom I will be grateful to for life.

I hate to see myself land up in this awful situation where every post I write revolves around how miserable and pathetic I am. I had never expected that I would lead a life where I could be so troubled every day from the moment I got up from my sleep, struggling to cope with all the balls thrown at me.

What can I do. What can I do.

pictures and optimism

2010-07-14T19:38:00.000-07:00

Title: Braving through

It struck me once again. Life has never been easy these days; troubled and confused. Overwhelmed by all sorts of challenges, and they cover every aspect of life. Sad and pathetic, nothing could be worse than this.

Cheer up, get over it, move on (what else not). Can optimism bring me to the very end? As always, there are two sides to every story. Tell me if you can figure out if this is a sunrise or sunset.

"Contemplation often makes life miserable. We should act more, think less, and stop watching ourselves live." A realistic truth raised by Nicolas de Chamfort. Maybe if I continue to press on, I could be that tiny fellow right there, against all odds.

I shall take a leap forward and perhaps I could succeed in defying gravity; turn dreams into reality.

Smiles warm the earth.

I don't want to get defeated time and over again. Be strong, and I do need you.

damn i still love you

2010-07-11T16:46:00.000-07:00

Title: Again and again

I wanted to talk about it. But, again, I always got held back. The same thing applies now. Damn, I still love you.

way back into love

2010-07-09T23:16:00.000-07:00

Title: Way back into love

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past
I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need them again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but i just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end
Oh oh oh

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end

jct over; i need redemption

2010-07-01T23:00:00.000-07:00

Title: Redemption

Well, enough of the cliche where you get to read how relieve people are when mid years are over. I have to say that I'm glad actually, but hang on, no I'm not. FML. I got so worked up when it comes to all these shitty papers for every bit of it is an opportunity for self-redemption. However, the usual is that things always don't turn out the way you want it to. Banging on this subject and giving up the other. I have had enough of it. Or perhaps even an over-dosage. It sucks when you have to stay up late in the night, trying to convince yourself that all the last minute chionging will miraculously help. I am so miserable that I have just popped muscle relaxation pills to get a good night sleep and so called ease the tension in my muscles. In addition to it, I fell sick, again (thanks to my oblivious mom who loves to spread the viruses). Fyi, the entire family has visited the doctor. I hate those tablets and all. It's so torturous, especially for me where I have to use that lovely tablet crusher to worsen the taste due to my wonderful inability to swallow them.

I love my friends (of course, note that I do draw a line between friends and schoolmates ever since stepping into hell). They motivate you, cheer you up, simply put, they do all sorts of things to your benefit. How selfless (: Today, Hui Min passed me an awesome item to get me going. Definitely, I have to credit her boyfriend for creating that amazing gift which I think will play a huge role to my academic life.

Alright, I desperately need redemption. In all areas of life. Particularly relationships wise and my studies. I feel so hopeless despite carrying this contradictory optimistic attitude that I always have. I shall not say that I have any big plans or what so ever for those have constantly been empty promises. It is undeniable that actions are louder than words. Try going against reality, it doesn't work.

at big ben

2010-06-18T18:10:00.000-07:00

Title: Last Friday at Big Ben

camping to study, for him too

2010-06-08T21:20:00.000-07:00

Title: Camping out

After my last 'camp', I didn't study at all. That's so amazing! But think again, well, it's kinda the norm though (: So, I've decided that 'camping' out of home to study WORKS (: 'Camp-ed' at Parkway's Carl's Jr. today. Love it! Oh, and the beef chilli cheese fries is awesome! A little salty though.
I'll be 'camping' at Parkway's Subway tomorrow since it is MEATBALL day! (:

back at one by brian mcknight

2010-06-07T15:55:00.000-07:00

Title: Back At One

It’s undeniable that we should be together
It’s unbelievable, how I used to say that I’d fall never
The basis is need to know
If you just don’t know how I feel
Then let me show you that now I’m for real
If all the things in time, time will reveal
Yeah

One, you’re like a dream come true
Two, just wanna be with you
Three, girl it’s plain to see
That you’re the only one for me and
Four, repeat steps one through three
Five, make you fall in love with me
If ever I believe my work is done
Then I’ll start back at one

(yeah)
It’s so incredible, the way things work themselves out
And all emotional, once you know what it’s all about, hey
And undesirable, for us to be apart
I never would’ve made it very far
'cause you know you got the keys to my heart
'cause...

One, you’re like a dream come true
Two, just wanna be with you
Three, girl it’s plain to see
That you’re the only one for me and
Four, repeat steps one through three
Five, make you fall in love with me
If ever I believe my work is done
Then I’ll start back at one

Say farewell to the dark of night
I see the coming of the sun
I feel like a little child, whose life has just begun
You came and breathed new life into this lonely heart of mine
You threw out the life line
Just in the nick of time

One, you’re like a dream come true
Two, just wanna be with you
Three, girl it’s plain to see
That you’re the only one for me and
Four, repeat steps one through three
Five, make you fall in love with me
If ever I believe my work is done
Then I’ll start back at one

back from library - to him

2010-06-06T16:33:00.000-07:00

Title: -

BACK! 'Cause study partner thinks it's time to go home. Hmmmm. Rather proud of myself today for completing some work (: And damn that library security who stares at us and have no guts to catch us snacking. Haha.

for him

2010-06-06T03:35:00.000-07:00

Title: -

'Camping' at marine parade library for the whole of Sunday. Hopefully I can do some productive studying.

his msn nicks

2010-06-05T22:47:00.000-07:00

Title: I don't know what to do.

Who does it refer to? I feel weird reading it, or perhaps it has became a habit to read it after these years. Maybe that explains why.

previous post sounds rough; kid nation

2010-05-29T17:52:00.000-07:00

Title: Previous post sounds rough.

Not that I am over with the complaints that I have posted previously, but it does sound rough. I'm a decent person, ain't I? Shall be nice (: It's stupidity to let them be the highlight of my post anyways.

Deal with it!

Yup, that's the quote I've picked up from Kid Nation. It's a rather interesting reality TV to watch, giving me time to laugh at and commend on the wonders that make a kid. Oh, I understand that this video is a little LQ but if you're really interested, try google!

You guys may think that I'm back to TV-ing again! But, hell no! I've been a really good girl, making the effort to spend my time wisely. To recuperate, to stone, and a little studying. It's term break now, but I don't really feel it. Rather weird this time round. So yeah, at this stage, the focus should be on academics. BUT, you guys know me well enough. I do need other additives to spice up my life. Still looking for it, but I am making a promise now to be ~~loyal, true, faithful~~ (gah, I can't find the word) to studies.

Till then (:

season finale of s20 out soon

2010-05-16T20:25:00.000-07:00

Title: Who's the sole survivor?

Season finale is coming up in just hours! I'm so excited to find out who will the sole survivor of Heroes vs Villians be! :D

on angeline madjukie

2010-05-15T00:22:00.000-07:00

Title: MISS YA!

That dawn before she left, we were talking on the phone. I cried so badly. Struggled to stay up all night just to make sure that I don't miss that last opportunity. I remember that I had my work all laid out that night, but I couldn't even get my hands on completing a single task.

It's really amazing to realise how we get to know each other and how we miraculously turn out to be such besties <3

dragonz song

2010-05-10T19:56:00.000-07:00

Title: The long anticipated Dragonz

It doesn't sound that awesome but I still love it since it's a Survivor production (:

b for pw

2010-05-01T17:08:00.000-07:00

Title: My swan post on PW.

Alright. It's time to stop blogging about Survivor for once. Annunciation. I got a B for Project Work. It's a B.
Thanks to you know who.
Anyways, my sis is doing PW now and she can spend one entire day working only on that dumb PI. Just in case you have forgotten, it stands for Preliminary Idea. She had no clue on how to go about doing it. Looking upon this pathetic situation, my ingenious dad actually asked her to get a 'project work tuition teacher'! *roll eyes*

Anw, happy mayday!

amanda is in jury, love ponderosa!

2010-04-30T21:02:00.000-07:00

Title: Survivor, Survivor, Survivor

AMANDA KIMMEL'S TORCH GOT SNUFFED! This sucks for I have been rooting for her since Day 1. She landed herself in lousy alliances this time round which brings her nowhere in this game. I felt terrible all over when she was declared the fourth jury member. With this, Survivor will not be as interesting as it was to me anymore. On another note, I LOVE PONDEROSA! Just a piece of advice to CBS: You should do full episodes on Ponderosa instead of the game. I'm more keen to peek into the castaways' life at Ponderosa instead of at camp, challenges and tribal council.

You know what? Dear Courtney mentioned at Ponderosa that if Amanda were to make it to the end, she'll cast her one million dollar vote for her! Damn. Candice is a true villian, or perhaps the world's best flipper. She did it exactly the same way like her game in Cook Islands. Candice, oh Candice! You should know well enough that flipping to King Russell will eventually make you the bottom of that alliance. I can't imagine that I actually expected you to stay true to Amanda previously. And, worst of all, what the hell are you doing on the bed Mr Colby Donaldson???!!! Instead of backing up Amanda who is in your alliance, you actually made her gave the clue to Danielle! This is nuts. You're definitely not playing the game at all this time round. What a letdown - to all your fans, viewers of Survivor and not to forget, James Clement.

I have got so much to say about this episode of Survivor. To be frank, I hate the merge. Yeah, I've got to swallow my words back. Queen Parvati played a crazy game in episode 10. Though it was a great and logical move, to me, it ruined the entire game...

(I ended with ... as I know myself well enough that I am capable of writing a million word essay solely on Survivor if I didn't stop.)

saw mrs chee and ms nani in tj

2010-04-22T17:01:00.000-07:00

Title: Excitement that I could barely experience during my time in that place

I saw Ms Nani during lunch break today! (: OMG. I couldn’t believe that they are here in TJ. For once, I’m so grateful that the school is hosting the courses that the teachers dread to attend. HAHA. Alright, here’s the climax. I SAW MRS CHEE TOO!!! :D :D :D OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG. This is nuts. And she went “Charmaine!” Haha. This is totally awesome! I miss my secondary school teachers; they were wonderful people. As usual, my eyes became teary when I talked to Mrs Chee. I tried so hard to hold back my tears.

Secondary school days were fun and crazy! In contrast, look at what shit I got myself into now.
Once you’ve been to heaven, everything becomes hell when compared.

looking forward to survivor 20 merge

2010-04-20T22:32:00.000-07:00

Title: Episode 10 - The Merge

I am super looking forward to the merge! Look at all the possible crazy alliances!
5 HEROES vs 5 VILLIANS! (:

crazy JT on survivor 20

2010-04-17T17:33:00.000-07:00

Title: J.T. is DUMB!

Russell,
This is a huge turning point in this game. Huge because I am about to make a complete ass of myself on national television. This is not fake. I wouldn't waste your time or mine, because lord knows we're sooooooo busy out here doing absolutely nothing 23 hours a day. Just by competing against you and in the few handshakes that we've had I feel like I can trust you. The same way my alliance here could trust me to change my vote every three days according to my game of eeny, meeny, miny, moe. Play the idol tonight and save yourself. All the girls should be writing your name down so act like you know you are going home. Kind of like the way you have convinced me into writing this idiotic letter. Basically, try to make sure they are as dumb as me and Rupert. I think you should write Parvati's name down and send her home. We will most likely merge at 10 people and you will be completely safe with us. Because why wouldn't you want to be the sixth person in a six-person alliance as opposed to a key member of a five-person pact? That makes all the mathematical sense in the world, right? Our five plus you will remain strong until the girls are done with. We can then work on getting ourselves to the final 3, and when I say ''ourselves'', I mean me, Amanda, and Rupert. But mostly me. This is your chance to prove you're not a Survivor villain. And my chance to prove I am a genuine jackass. Please destroy after reading so no further evidence of my idiocy exists.

Love,
J.T.

shopping!

2010-04-12T17:39:00.000-07:00

Title: Splurge on yourself NOW!

I have always always always wanted to SHOP as god knows when was the last time I splurge! Yesterday's 20 minutes of shopping spree was AWESOME :D I cleared 3 outlets at one go (: Here's how it goes: I entered the shops, started stacking clothes on my hand, and rushed into the fitting room! (: HAHA. It's of utmost importance to try out the clothes before purchasing so that I spend every dollar wisely (ain't I a smart consumer?) I bought a blue dress & a grey top (: Seventy-seven bucks in total, with 50% off the second piece! If you notice, SALE is everywhere! Don't wait for GSS 2010 for now is already the time to stock up the seemingly empty wardrobe!

finish cook islands; take A level; when in rome

2010-04-07T19:30:00.000-07:00

Title: Stay strong.

After three dedicated days of blogging, I’m back to the old me. But, hello, I do check my blog! (: Obviously, I have been occupied with watching Survivor Cook Islands. Ozzy Lusth and Candice Woodcock are my favourites for this season. Not that I want to leave the flirtatious Parvati out, but in comparison with her game in Fans vs Favourites, this was still not as great. Like mentioned, Ozzy is “half man, half animal; half fish, half monkey.” He’s a crazy jungle boy! And the weak little Candice I saw in Heroes vs Villians was totally different from that in Cook Islands. Perhaps it’s a change of her strategy or I was not paying closer attention to what she was doing around in camp in the Heroes tribe. Alright, enough of Survivor! (:

With regards to all the rants I’ve been posting previously, I now declare that I have decided to stay strong and challenge the intimidating ‘A’ levels. Well, I guess one sentence of ‘study talks’ is enough for life with muggers around daily is sucky to the max. already.

Anyways, I hit the town with dear Angeline Madjukie again last Saturday. We caught When In Rome. It was a great movie ‘cause I felt so re-charged after the good laugh! For those who are as depressed as I was, this film is highly recommended :D

mct grades sucks

2010-03-31T21:39:00.000-07:00

Title: I think I should quit.

I DID STUDY! But, my MCT grades are still bad. Perhaps I should not take 'A' Levels this year...

survivor seasons

2010-03-30T17:45:00.000-07:00

Title: Survivor!

While waiting for the complete loading of this new Survivor season that I'm embarking on, I was thinking if I should turn you guys into Survivor fans too (: Honestly, there's no reason to not be a fan of Survivor. I painstakingly searched for the following wonderful seasons that I have watched and uploaded them here (: Enjoy!

Survivor: Micronesia (Fans vs Favourites)

Survivor: Heroes vs Villians (latest season)

Survivor: China

Survivor: Cooks Island (the one I'm watching now)

return, revenge, redemption (:

2010-03-29T18:36:00.000-07:00

Title: RETURN, ~~REVENGE,~~ REDEMPTION

Once again, I'm back! There's always so much that I would like to share. To catch up, college life is really bad. On the bus back home with Kristal today, I got enlightened. I have been considering to pull out of college since I don't find myself sufficiently prepared for the upcoming 'A's, and most importantly, the environment turns me off. But, after today's conversation, I realise that there is still an alternative path for me. Though dropping out now is a little too late for Poly enrolment and it is never my style to give up, I could consider attending Poly or taking up other courses next year. It may be a waste of two miserable years, but down the road, these two years actually doesn't matter and can even be well-paid off. Yep, so that's what I have in mind right now.

Fyi, the title was quoted from the latest season of Survivor: Heroes vs Villians. I return to continue blogging, and also redeem myself from having long hiatus over these two years. There are many reasons for me to not quit blogging. Despite hating to have people like my teachers and my mom to read my posts, I have thought it over and that it doesn't matter as long as it doesn't give me a problem. Thinking back, I begin blogging in 2005 'cause it was like the in-thing and I enjoyed blogging! I picked up my skills from scratch and even managed to teach and help my friends to start a blog. Of course, I was not fantastic at it, and neither am I a pro. But ultimately, blogging is still fun and I think that it would be such a pity if I stop halfway.

Obviously, I didn't do my own skin this time round. It has been long since I have been using some designers' skin so I thought I should give it a try again. And, kudos to my laziness too! HAHA. I have tried to make minimum changes to the skin so all the edits I have done are the basic edits, expanding the width of the table, and adding a prelude section.

Alright, I AM A SURVIVOR FAN! :D Haha. It started when I caught the re-telecast of Survivor: Micronesia (Fans vs Favourites) and I got so obsessed over it. The current Survivor 20 is an all-star season with four castaways from Micronesia (Amanda Kimmel, Parvati Shallow, James Clement, Cirie Fields). I am crazy over Amanda's and Parvati's play in Micronesia; it was AWESOME! Quoting from Probst, they perfect the art of blind-siding. I LOVE IT! (: Well, alongside with the current Heroes vs Villians season that I'm watching now, I just completed Survivor: China (: I chose to watch that season simply for Amanda and James, and also to answer my curiosity of how James got into the hall of fame of dumbest Survivor castaway ever and why is small-size Courtney Yates in the all-star season and in the Villians tribe.

Anyways, I am guilty of not updating at all this year (literally), since Day 1 of 2010. To fill you guys in, I have been to Genting and Kuala Lumpur, went out with Angeline Madjukie, attended press conference to observe the role of a journalist, sprained my ankle, experienced a chemical burn on the ankle due to lotion, met Fala and Tavia, and now I'm having a blister on my little toe on that same foot. (These are just some of the highlights so far.)

Will be back with more updates! (:

preparing the long post; pic of tiffany and i

2010-02-09T18:28:00.000-08:00

I'm in the midst of preparing my LONNNNNNNNNNNNNNG post :D

will update real soon!

2010-02-01T17:44:00.000-08:00

Heyya! I will update real soon, do expect a long post ahead (: Stay tuned!

sch reopen

2010-01-10T23:54:00.000-08:00

OH FREAK!!! ~
I don't want to go back THERE

no no no no no no no no no no no

havent unpack; starhub tickets

2009-12-27T18:51:00.000-08:00

SLOW SLOW SLOW! I am the only one left who have yet to completely unpack my things. Anyways, I attended a BBQ gathering at my cousin's place last night for simple socialising purposes and I managed to get a pair of tickets for that special night. Woah, I can't wait for the namelist of the people attending to be out (: (: (: It feels so good sometimes when you get to enjoy privileges from your relatives!

My house has welcomed many visitors recently, and they mocked at my huge and messy room. Not exactly mocking, but it's really quite a trouble to entertain those people. Oh, and my lovely aunties are back from Bangkok and they bought me bags of clothes! I have counted, my wardrobe can last me for 50 days without having to do the laundry.

i miss you

2009-12-20T03:53:00.000-08:00

Why do things become so hard to be explained, especially when it's related to you?
Am I the only one back there, still holding on, or are you stuck with me too?
If yes, this one year that we have pulled through is the greatest test that I have been made to sit through.

I MISS YOU.

Standing on the edge of the night ~
Feelings raging inside ~

shifted, ttsh attachment, pharm camp

2009-12-16T23:02:00.000-08:00

1. I've shifted, and it's less than 10 miles away from my previous house xD
2. Attachment last Tuesday till Friday was such an eye-opener! (:
3. Just got back from the 3D2N Pharm Camp & made many new friends (:

TAVIA YEUNG YI HAS GOTTEN 2 AWARDS!!!

2009-12-04T23:09:00.000-08:00

TAVIA YEUNG YI HAS GOTTEN 2 AWARDS!!!
OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG

one meal a day; angeline madjukie leaving soon

2009-12-01T01:32:00.000-08:00

Hellooo world! Lately, life has been ___________. I am so bothered by some things actually, or specifically and whole-heartedly, AN ISSUE! Alright, no point blabbing about it since there is NO WAY that I am going to discuss it with anyone. Boo boo boo! As we are all enjoying this wonderful school break (as in most of us), my stomach suffers badly. And so does my sis's. We've been having one pathetic meal a day and living life as if we are in America (in terms of the day and night reversal). Oh, speaking of America, my DEAR DEAR DEAREST Angeline Madjukie is going over there this April. She's leaving me behind to suffer. It seems like everyone's going abroad to further their studies. I AM SO SO SO GOING TO MISS HER! We can spend our entire life talking about EVERYTHING! There is this endless list of topics for us to go on and on and on (:

Till then.

read all blog archives

2009-11-25T03:03:00.000-08:00

Just read through my entire blog archives for the past 5 years. Life back then was SWEET, lame, ridiculous and definitely childish (:

point form post

2009-11-16T23:28:00.000-08:00

1. Thank you for visiting! (:

2. My blog ain't dead, I just don't know how to start writing so I'm trying out this idea of using point form.

3. I freakingly got PROMOTED :DD

4. Yunnan OCIP was cancelled due to H1N1. Latest news is that we are going to Indonesia instead but I will most likely not be able to go.

5. Proud to announce, PW is out of my life.

6. I am lost in my life and also about my life. Someone, save me.

7. I need to get a bag and a planner (:

8. TVB Anniversary Awards is coming up soon and I am not exactly excited. What's wrong with me?

9. I'll be moving soon.

More updates in time to come.

blue-you make me wanna

2009-10-29T20:38:00.000-07:00

Do you still remember this song?

Blue - You make me wanna

Lyrics

You know you make me wanna.
You know you make me wanna.

To start it off I know you know me
To come to think of it, it was only last week.
That I had a dream about us, oh.
That's why I am here, I'm writing this song.
To tell the truth you know I have been hurting all along,
Someway let me know, you want me girl.

Everytime you see me what do you see?
I feel like I'm a poor man and you're the queen.
Oh baby, you're the only thing that I really need.
Baby that's why

You make me wanna call you in the middle of the night.
You make me wanna hold you till the morning light.
You make me wanna love, you make me wanna fall.
You make me wanna surrender my soul.
I know this is a feeling that I just can't fight.
You're the first and last thing on my mind.
You make me wanna love, you make me wanna fall.
You make me wanna surrender my soul.

Well I know that these feelings won't end no, no.
They'll just get stronger if I see you again.
Baby I'm tired of being friends.
I wanna know if you feel the same
And could you tell me do you feel my pain?
Don't leave me in doubt.

Everytime you see me what do you see?
I feel like I'm a poor man and you're the queen.
Oh baby, you're the only thing that I really need.
And baby that's why

You make me wanna call you in the middle of the night.
You make me wanna hold you till the morning light.
You make me wanna love, you make me wanna fall.
You make me wanna surrender my soul.
I know this is a feeling that I just can't fight.
You're the first and last thing on my mind.
You make me wanna love, you make me wanna fall.
You make me wanna surrender my soul.

I'll take you home real quick
And sit you down on the couch
Pour some Dom Perignon and hit the lights out.
Baby we can make sweet love.
Then we'll take it nice and slow.
I'm gonna touch you like you've never know before
We're gonna make love all night.

You make me wanna call you in the middle of the night.
You make me wanna hold you till the morning light.
You make me wanna love, you make me wanna fall.
You make me wanna surrender my soul.
I know this is a feeling that I just can't fight.
You're the first and last thing on my mind.
You make me wanna love, you make me wanna fall.
You make me wanna surrender my soul.

doing wr

2009-10-29T18:45:00.000-07:00

Chionging WR now with 18 more hours to go!

TJ102 all the way! (:

time heals all wounds?

2009-10-24T00:01:00.000-07:00

"Time heals all wounds." Does this statement holds true?

birthday

2009-10-23T00:31:00.000-07:00

Lovely picture that was taken about an hour ago. Shall elaborate further another time.